Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Baby Blues!

Postpartum depression sucks!! I have it and I know I have it bad but overcoming it is something else entirely. I feel worthless, fat, and I don't want to do anything around the house. All I can bring myself to do is take care of the baby and I probably am not good at that. I also don't want to leave the house. I seem to be making everyone around here mad but I am not sure what to do about that. I did ask for meds from the doc but they made me feel VERY sick so I had to stop them. OMG- I hope this ends soon!

I wrote this as an outlet because I am pretty sure not many people read my blog- otherwise I would be horribly embarrassed. I feel like if I say it out loud (or write it down) that it helps. I researched Postpartum depression and only 20% of women go through what I am feeling. I feel like I should be able to control it but can't. I am too embarrassed to go to the doc again even cancelling my 6 week checkup!

Baby Girl

Her eyes are blue- i haven't gotten a good pic of them yet! outfit is 0-3 and too big the shorts are even rolled at the waist in this pic!

she looked at me!




Stella's Blessing

Our Family She was not happy-was screaming without binkie!

not a great picture but the best i got that day!