4th of July Fun!

This is Stella- my little firecracker!

All the Kids!

Saxton being a good big brother and helping out stella

Stella loved the splash fountains!

Stella!

Sage donating her hair to Locks of Love!

The before shot- the 1o inch ponytail!Getting it cut off! There it is!

The after shot- i love it!

Valentine's Pictures!

This is Stella on Valentine's Day~ in her heart shirt and jeggings!This is on Sunday~ Sean was leaving so we did their gifts that day~ the older girls got crystal headbands, Saxton got a LEGO toy, and Stella got jammies! The older kids also got jars full of gummies!

The Big Snow!

The Big Snow~ this snow kept the kids out of school for a week! We only enjoyed it for 2 days then it was annoying! That first day- we did spend ALL day outside and that is when I took all these pictures!

The Family in front of our house!
Check out Saxton and his mad skills on the snowboard!

Syd trying to snowboard!

Stella all bundled up on her sled!

The Christmas Card Photo Shoot!

This is the shot I should have used!

This is up the street from our house- pretty scenery!

This was the winning shot in the end~ it is a miracle that we even got a decent one!

Sydney's 14th Birthday!

Syd and her friends!

Sydney and her cake!

Tie Dye!!!

Sage's 12th Birthday

Sage and her friends!

Twister- A timeless game!

Her Cake!
Tie Dye~ Also another classic!

Fall Break at the Beach!

Syd jumping!The kids!

The Family!

Me and kids working on sandcastle!

Saxton Boogie Boarding!


Girls playing football!

Stella put her feet in the ocean!

The Family Again!

Sage's 12th Birthday!!!Playing Twister!

Sage and her friends!

Blowing out the candles!

Tie Dying Pillowcases!

Beautiful Stella

Tryin to decide which one I like best? What do you think? I am trying to make a wall of photos of my kids- I have one of syd that is good now to do the rest- I hope one of these will work for Stella!

Much Better!

A BIG thank you to my family and friends for all of your support. I am feeling much better these days. I feel like I made it over the hump but it was really hard. I really appreciate all the comments and emails that I recieved that helped me through the hard times. I am now enjoying my time with Stella more and more. I am still lonely but know from moving a few times that it takes time to make new friends. The other kids are doing good in school and I have signed them up for after school activities- so the madness begins.

Baby Blues!

Postpartum depression sucks!! I have it and I know I have it bad but overcoming it is something else entirely. I feel worthless, fat, and I don't want to do anything around the house. All I can bring myself to do is take care of the baby and I probably am not good at that. I also don't want to leave the house. I seem to be making everyone around here mad but I am not sure what to do about that. I did ask for meds from the doc but they made me feel VERY sick so I had to stop them. OMG- I hope this ends soon!

I wrote this as an outlet because I am pretty sure not many people read my blog- otherwise I would be horribly embarrassed. I feel like if I say it out loud (or write it down) that it helps. I researched Postpartum depression and only 20% of women go through what I am feeling. I feel like I should be able to control it but can't. I am too embarrassed to go to the doc again even cancelling my 6 week checkup!

Baby Girl

Her eyes are blue- i haven't gotten a good pic of them yet! outfit is 0-3 and too big the shorts are even rolled at the waist in this pic!

she looked at me!

Stella's Blessing

Our Family She was not happy-was screaming without binkie!

not a great picture but the best i got that day!